It struck me today how much I enjoy the food I eat daily. The actual food has not changed in well over a year just the serving size. Some might call how I eat a diet and think its nuts but for me it's just what I have to do to get where I want to be.
Ever since I started training for wrestling I understood my eating habits would need to change, I just didn't have the knowledge I needed. For me like many other people food is such a comfort that when I think about being on a diet I thought of sacrifice and starving.
That is completely not so....I've learned to be satisfied with all the delicious "healthy" options out there. don't get me wrong this took ten years, believe me many a day I had deams of the buffet and just wanting to be satisfied but I learned there is no food out there that will satisfy me when I get that feeling. I enjoy feeling good!
Christmas 2010 I figured it's the holidays I can indulge right??? 5 days later and a total of 35 Christmas cookies down I felt disgusting. I had to have a serious talk with myself about why I indulge to the point of uncomfort and decided then my body, head and heart all need to be on the same page. Why is my mind telling me go for it when my body is saying no more?
Once I got back home and into the swing of work, training and travel I kept in mind the little talk I have with myself. I felt great and with the help of a new trainer I was starting to get the results I wanted. I had more freedom in my diet since I was just given totals of protein, fat and carbs I had to hit in a day. I started experimenting with veggies and finding new and exciting things to do with oatmeal.
This past Christmas I was really worried with all the parties and family gatherings would I cave? Would I feel excluded from the holiday cheer without desert? Could I indulge a little and feel satisfied?
I am happy to report it was a breeze. I made smart decisions and didn't feel like I COULDNT have anything. I told myself I could have anything I wanted but I really thought about how it would make me feel after and most of the "crap" was not worth it. That's not to say I didn't eat any crap..I had one bite of three different deserts on Christmas day and was completely content.
Life is such a crazy process. I went 30 years with what I would call an un healthy relationship with food. I wish young Sara knew the things older Sara knows but that is all part of the process!